Sunday, October 24, 2004

tu me tardes

souvent, je ne suis plus sure des mots. Et l'inspiration ou l'admiration que j'eprouve envers les flots luxurieux et lumineux qui illuminent mon esprit ne me donne que peu de force. Mélancolie. Mélodieuse mélancolie . Douceurs douloureuses et aspirations enfantines. Je ne sais plus vraiment où je me trouverai, if i were to look. Have i dispersed my inner self a little too wide aparT? But he is there , a soothing life breathing might. Sometimes, it is easier to think than it is to act. And sometimes you do not need to see to know precisely well what it is you are amazed by. You radiate and i linger in the sweetness of your warmth. It is all very diffuse and dim, and time slips by . Where has all the chivalry and the simplicity of beauty fled off to? And how come sometimes one stumbles across a glimmering, faint trace of hope or light ? THe ONE is not , maybe in silence we will give sense to it all. One day over the rainbow and ever so far away, a child's laugh will be heard and it will come pouring down upon all the unhappy, and tear upon their stone cold hearts, and brighten their perception of a world too full to be let go of. Agarrate hija, que siempre te quedarás en el cielo. I miss you terribly but i do not wish you were here because i would forget i had ever been alive. Et si je ne sais plus, tout ce que j'ai vécu, c'est que tes teux ne m'ont pas toujours vu.

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Forgive me if what has seemed little to you, to me is all

Poetry in simple, naked, raw words. Tears rising up like sweet fumes or bitter anger, chilling words. I am in complete awareness of TIME. How cruel that we should be given a conscience of our "assujettissement" to time. forward motion of degradation, and yet full of rebirth. helplessness, hoplessness, fright at knowing that Time will have the better of all of us. How powerful, how weighty. We must link in order to crush the chain. Create time so as to better fall in an oblivion of it. Why do we want to know?

Sunday, October 03, 2004

sin

I’ve been a bad bad girl,
I’ve been careless with a delicate man.
And it’s a sad sad world,
When a girl can break a boy
Just because she can.
Don’t you tell me to deny it,
I’ve done wrong and I want to
Suffer for my sins.
I’ve come to you ’cause I need
Guidance to be true
And I just don’t know where I can begin.
What I need is a good defense
’cause I’m feelin’ like a criminal.
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I sinned against
Because he was all I ever knew of love.
Heaven help me for the way I am.
Save me from these evil deeds.
Before I get them done.
I know tomorrow brings the consequence
At hand.
But I keep livin’ this day like
The next will never come.
Oh, help me, but don’t tell me
To deny it.
I’ve got to cleanse myself.
Of all these lies till I’m good
Enough for him.
I’ve got a lot to lose and i’m
Bettin’ high
So I’m beggin’ you before it ends
Just tell me where to begin.
What I need is a good defense
’cause I’m feelin’ like a criminal.
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I sinned against
Because he was all I ever knew of love.
Let me know the way
Before there’s hell to pay.
Give me room to lay the law and let me go.
I’ve got to make a play
To make my lover stay
So, what would an angel say?
’cause the devil wants to know.
What I need is a good defense
’cause I’m feelin’ like a criminal.
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I sinned against
Because he was all I ever knew of love.
What I need is a good defense
’cause I’m feelin’ like a criminal.
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I sinned against
Because he was all I ever knew of love

fiona apple, criminal. BUT MY CHOICE HAS BEEN MADE.